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fuck- ERz
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[21 May 2004|02:35pm] |
You know what...this year has been hell, emotionally i have gone thru so much shit discovering who i truely am and who truely loves me. Yes, i know now my family is always going to have my back. No matter what my mom says..she'll always be there...my cousin, she's blood and her shit runs thicker then any bullshit i have to take from other people. And through broken promises in relationships and "unconditional" friendships i have realized that myself, and my family are all i have. I dont need to jump on someone's dick to let them know how sorry i am... im not. Sorry is a charecter trait. I've apologized for what i did wrong, if you see or believe otherwise, that shit is on you. I wont lie, at one point i needed you but you know what i truely believe you needed me just as much as i needed you. So YOU can jeapordize what we had over shit, and you can blow shit out of proportion. I have apologized for one thing...believe what you wanna believe, and thats cool. I dont have time for the stress of what i should and shouldnt do, thats why im not stressing SHIT. I have been with more sincere friends sence this arguement, which has made me realize how much bullshit you just might be pullin ur relationship through. You can let it go...you can do anything you want with your life...it's your call. But i'm not going back to a place where i'll be downsized by a person who doesnt have any type of place to talk. So you can drop it compleatly or stay havin beef. I guess we realized who our true friends are. I guess we realize just how much we can stand of eachother...so...
Sorry, John...cant move in with you and Emily after graduation. I have no need to stay in hamptonroads. All it is is shit talkers and phoney friends
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[20 May 2004|07:36pm] |
John... i wanna talk to DC tell him my name on here.
Im still gonna kick someones ass.
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[20 May 2004|07:32pm] |
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diagnosed with strep throat.
No school today. or tomorrow.
Who ever gave me this is gonna get their ass kicked.
Fuckers.
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[17 May 2004|07:47pm] |
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I like being in the same room with you and your girlfriend
The fact that she don't know
That really turns me on
She'll never guess in a million years
That we got this thing going on....
You're my little secret
And that's how we should keep it
It's on everybody's mind, about you and I
They think so, but they don't really know or wanna know that
-you're my little secret-
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[14 Apr 2004|11:06pm] |
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I am so fucking tired of people assuming shit about me. Believe it or not i dont have sex with everyone i meet. I dont lie about every fucking thing either. Im tired of ignorant closed minded people. I dont even wanna bother mending shit with anybody. Im so much better then the retarded comments i have to hear. I'll be by myself, fuck that. Id rather be single then have to hear all this bullshit.
LeT iT bUrN....
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[31 Mar 2004|09:00pm] |
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Your supposed to be her bestfriend- bestfriend....
Im supposed to be her girlfriend-girlfriend
Now im fallin for you and i cant controle it
Cant tell her this...just cant explain this...
You're my little secret
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[29 Mar 2004|07:53pm] |
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you were the one i used to run and talk to
when me and my girl was having problems
now what's bad is you're the one that hooked us up
knowing it should have been you
and what's sad is that im with her but i'm falling for you ( Damn... )
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[20 Mar 2004|11:36pm] |
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Humm....$3.35 in gas or $3.25 in food?
fuck being on E. we were hungry.
Mcdonolds or Gas?. Exit 250B. Having to piss. Walking in the cold. Walking back in the cold. State trooper. Mom.
I hate last night.
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[14 Mar 2004|12:14pm] |
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 its like...an arab lincoln park
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[03 Mar 2004|09:32pm] |
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2.) How do you protect yourself from AIDS? Im gay you ass.
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[03 Mar 2004|09:24pm] |
"C-h-e-r-i G-a-v-e me...........BV!"
"iM Hungrey...CORNDOGSSSSSSS!!!"
"I wanna pass this fucking car"
"What's and intake?"
I hate today.
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| Fuck you...and your untouchable face |
[03 Mar 2004|09:14pm] |
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This is what i stay for... the talking untill im too tired to hang up the phone, to the kisses on my forehead and walking me to my classes- this...is why i dont scream and break down. After all is said and done, i just want to stay like this forever, i hate fussing, i hate having sarcastic arguments over absolutly nothing. Im addicted to drama...so im ok with you when you pull away, im ok with you're attitude, and from isnide looking out, im ok with everything. I justhate looking stupid...i hate people saying this is not right, not here not now. But then again........ Im gay. Youre stud. Im white. Your black. I dont get much more dysfunctional on the outside looking in. So for now we'll stay addicted to eachothers irony and eat off eachothers jealousy.
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| I cant believe i believed everything we had would last |
[01 Mar 2004|09:08pm] |
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...Im smarter then this... Im smarter then all this bullshit that people throw at me. Im smart enough to know and comprehend what the hell i wanna do with my life. So why the fuck am i not thinking. Why is everybody else the ones who know whats right and wrong for me. Im here...again...back to my old ways. In a room full of people... alone. ALONE. what. the. fuck. Im tired of studs who think that on and off work with me. It doesnt. Im tired of sorry ass females who believe that they are always right and their girlfriends arent. I cant figure out why i always seem to be wrong in her eyes, i dont really care. Im smarter then this, im better then this. So why the fuck cant i leave it?
"I leave for a living. You're just a move i made to the door"
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| She flirts with suicide. |
[19 Jan 2004|12:10pm] |
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Sometimes.... Thats. ok.
Im letting the phone ring
I dont wanna hear u cry
I dont wanna hear you explain
I dont what i was thinking even loving you in the first place
Dont know if i really even did
...So tonight ill listen to my phone ring
Cause theres nothing you can say and nothing to explain
Remember im the girl who made you hate blonde hair
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[13 Jan 2004|08:26pm] |
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Im still going through your letters everytime im home, its like a sad song on replay and i dunno what to do. I guess im doing this because in a sence, i dont know what else to do, how else to choose. The only times ive felt this way for someone i've been hurt and i keep making promises not to fall in love with another person everytime i come out of a relationship. i keep telling myself i wont and goddamn i dont wanna fuck my own head up by breaking my own promises, but what do i do when i already love you?
Im loving her. Im sleeping with him
Caught in the middle... i stand, you-brown skin brown eyes, simple perfection. Im walking from light skinned, spanishsexin mexican. Im wondering how to choose and what to do. Im waiting for an answer within it all, but im getting no where but confused. Hes dealing out and your dealing love, I know i need you, i know you're all i'll ever have to look for, so what do i do when all i want is him?
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| WithoUt you...iM not o.k |
[13 Jan 2004|08:05pm] |
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what of the mother
whose house is in flames
and both of her children
are in their beds crying
and she loves them both
with the whole of her heart
but she knows she can only
carry one at a time?
she's choking on the smoke
of unthinkable choices
she is haunted by the voices
of so many desires
she's bent over from the business
of begging forgiveness
while frantically running around
putting out fires
and you'll never know
just how much i loved you
you probably think this was
just my big excuse
but i stand committed
to a love i met while with you
and the fact that i adore you
is just one of my truths
so i-
i'm goin' home
to please the one i so love pleasing
and i don't expect
he'll have much sympathy for my grieving
but i guess that this is the price
that we pay for the privilege
of living for even a day
in a world with so many things
worth believing in
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[21 Dec 2003|08:12pm] |
im staying the weekend at emilys house.
we stole her moms car at like 2 in the morning yesterday, and went for a lil adventure. we were driving down the little ass country road in gloucester and emily got the car stuck in a ditch trying to make a U-turn. then we got the back tires out and the front ones got stuck in the same ditch right after.
then, we went home.
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[05 Dec 2003|09:55pm] |
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I shall quit my job in 2 weeks.
farewell cambonians :-(
...yea like i ever liked their ugly chink ass anyway.
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[01 Dec 2003|09:18pm] |
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Quote from emily's journal
sherry is my best friend [11 Oct 2003|01:04am]
[ mood | horny ]
[ music | sherrys sexy voice ]
sherry rocks. i'd also like to point out that shes cool as shit. and i dropped my bowling ball at sparetimes today. john sat on sherrys lap for a picture. lap dance. get it.
by: sherry
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